food...

can't eat anymore... too sick... starting to get worried about that... I need to calm down... so Friday ends a week in which I only really ate once... here's the past week for me...

Friday: ate some ramen before I found out about the "situation"
Saturday: tried to sip some broth... didn't work..
Sunday: one bite of leftover steak... made me sick
Monday: nothing
Tuesday: Keith made me eat a hamburger... got REALLY sick...
Today: Keith made me eat again... tried to hold it down this time... didn't work..


kinda worried about this... it's probably just stress... but still it sucks... and worst part is after not eating for so long every time I look in the mirror I'm grossed out with my body and I don't want to eat anymore... it didn't start out this way... I was just sick... but I just got so used to not eating that I'm not hungry anymore... so I feel like a pig everytime I think about food... because people eat when they're hungry and if I'm not hungry why should I eat??.. eating when you're not hungry is an eating disorder... it's called obesity... and another thing... if people can go over a month without eating why do we need to eat everyday??... there are animals that only eat like once every two weeks... why should we be any different??.... there's no reason for me to eat everyday unless I'm doing something that requires a lot of energy... which I'm not... so what's the point??...